Love, love and love

Love was never love!

That was the very words my adviser was saying to me last day! Love was never love. You might be wondering what does it mean. The truth is I don't really know. Well I have been in this institution for quite some time now and its no wonder I've been hearing those like of words for almost four years, but this time it wasn't normal and it did really strike my mind's Achilles nerve(do we have that?haha).

I have been in love, I guess. I am pretty much sure I'm not sure(haha). I know love for years, it has been an act of kindness for me then. But as I grew up, love had change it identity unnoticingly. At present I am a senior student in a regional science high school and I'm doing fine, except for that love that's always bothering me.

My friend once told me that I wasn't doing what I routinely do and he insisted that I was always absent-minded. I was molded as an open-minded person so I asked him if he's serious and he replied yes. That words of my friend did leave a thought for me. Yeah I was, that time, been stocked to a girl in our campus. She is quite, well, beautiful. She is a kind of girl that really catches an attention of a guy like me. I just can't figure out what I was really feeling toward her. I thought that was it,you know, love. Love caters herself to me those times a glimpse of her, her supah smile that really catches my whole being and her sweet little tantalizing eyes.

That small feeling toward her grow much, really much. I start using cellular phones, which I wasn't doing very much. Well I should also be confessing that this girl made a lot contributions to my character building, even though she hasn't noticed it. I start to be watching my every move which is not normal for me. I start polishing everything I do. Well in short the girl become an inspiration to me.

The problem is that my torpeness(shyness). I am not that much secretive person so she knew that I wasn't feeling ordinary to her, which unfortunately lead her to avoid me much. Well that little discrepancy was solved by the cellular phone(haha). Thought you should know at present we're doing fine, minus the teachers biased views.

Well to relate things out, I was confronted by our advisor last day. Asking me that I should not let stuff like those I mention above ruin my focus and grades. When I and my adviser was talking, I know I've got to ask her also. I my adviser if what's love for her, for a teacher and an individual. Well you should know what she said to me. she said" Love is when to agree wholeheartedly to of all your responsibilities to a woman, to feed her and give her descent life, that's love for me. I was a bit amazed how my adviser who is always scolding our batch for such matters define it herself. But his last words are this " the thing you are feeling now is not love , it is just a mere infatuation and lust. You are still young and thing lies ahead you are countless, don't let that love of yours steal your bright future from you".

That was idea crawling in my mind these times. But the truth is I don't agree with adviser 100% but I just don't have the courage to argue with her whatsoever.

I think love at this very young age, is yes, not love at all. But I do also believe that this are just harsh lessons of life. The lesson we will never learn if we don't have the guts to follow what our hearts tell us.

But still I say, Love is love.